I am NOT athletic - don't even get me started - you don't want to go there! BUT, I always thought hurdles looked fun. A challenge - I'll admit it, but fun. IF I were going to be athletic - I thought hurdles would have been something I'd enjoy trying. Lately I feel like God is giving me that opportunity - to learn how to do those hurdles. I am knocking MANY down along the way, but I am also beginning to learn how to gracefully glide over them once in awhile.We have had a phone call this week - AFTER Micah's background check came in - that felt like a major setback. TO sum it all up - our paperwork said 0-3 years - being the child we would accept. Well, technically, Jada is over 3 years now - so IF China chooses - they can "push" that a little and say - 0-3 that would be 0-36 months so, she is over 36 months now and they can say we have to redo our paperwork while we are there - which means a lot of rigmarole for us and our social worker AND a prolonged stay in China. So we have two choices - go ahead and go - taking the chance that we may be prolonged a bit in China OR pay an extra almost $400 on this end and get our paperwork correct now - AND know that our paperwork may be held up another month before travel. I am being bluntly honest about this publically because I TRULY feel, even though I can not understand it, that God is STILL in control and STILL wants to be glorified through this. AND I want Him to get ALL the GLORY - so I want our friends and family to know the mountains He is moving to bring Jada home.
After much wrestling and praying - we are going to move forward and get our paperwork in order on this end. We are praying that God does indeed move a mountain - that He expedites this paperwork as only He can - "He knows", it comes back up again and again during this adoption. He knows Jada's health, He knows she is getting older and we'd love to get her and bring her home, but He knows the bigger picture and so we give it to Him. But we'll cover it in prayer - He can move mountains - and we are praying He will.
It may sound like we are antsy - and maybe we are - but we have waited over 3 years for Jada - we now SHOULD be so close to getting her and yet we keep having to jump those hurdles. That is the nature of adoption - many, many hurdles. We feel we've encountered more hurdles this adoption than our first one, so it doesn't make the second time around any easier! When I prayed last night - I asked God to take this and use it - use it to bring glory to Him. I often don't like to "bear my soul" on here, but one of the things I feel God saying so strongly is to let others know - let them know that "He knows" and He can do amazing things!
9 comments:
Oh, Becky! There are so many hurdles in adoption! So worth it in the end, or we wouldn't do it again, right? And you guys have waited so long for Jada. So very very long. But God is good, and HE is in control. Thanks for sharing. And as a fellow adoptive Mom, I wouldn't want to be in China and have an glitches in paperwork either. Especially with your beautiful kiddos waiting for you at home. God's blessings to you! Praying praying that this paperchase goes at the speed of "Light"!!
Bless your hearts! I swear there is nothing "easy" about adoption....
God is in control! You are right!
I will be thinking and praying for you guys!
Hugs, Jill
Oh no!! Your hurdles comparision is very accurate. In my simple mind, once people commit to an older child with special needs, it should be special handling, do not pass go, expedited processing ALL THE WAY. Change whatever numbers need to be changed, but just get us there FAST!! Sweet girl has been waiting far long enough.
We had to do a homestudy addendum for ours. We had originally said healthy child under 1 year and now we're special needs, 4 year old. We had a social worker re-interview us and then include specifics (child's name, orphanage, special need, etc) in the updated homestudy. I'm sure you've already thought of this, but just in case.
I will pray for you all. It is truly heartbreaking that now that you have found your girl there is still more red tape to get through.
God is good. He will reward your faithfulness.
Adrienne
Dear Becky,
You have made a good decision in updating your homestudy to be reflective of Jada's age. I truly know what you mean when you say you have wrestled with the decisions of what to do at this point. The second time around, more importantly, the adoption market has been changing...everything is more complex and intense and most definitely faith and character building in the long and unexpected wait! Thank you for your words of encouragement and strength and "focus" even in the midst of all the hurdles experienced in bringing Jada home. God hears you, loves you and is truly pleased and will continue to hold your family up! I am so proud of you!
Many prayers for you and Jada! I know it's hard. We love you and Jada too.
Oh Becky...I'm so sorry! We had many hurdles as well. We looked at Mia Hope's photo for 15 months...hurdle after hurdle...unemployment...health issues. Yes, give God all of the glory! He does not make mistakes and you are trusting in Him so He will take care of you. There are reasons none of us can see right now for these delays. I know it makes no sense...but if you can try to enjoy the calm before the storm. That may sound crazy because you probably feel like you are living in the storm already. But this busy mama will be an even BUSIER mama after Jada comes home. I'm sorry you've had so many hurdles. Keep jumping and God will not let you down!!!
I promise!!!
Hugs!
Robin
Becky, I know you must be going crazy with all this. I am praying that everything moves smoothly on this last bit so that you have Jada in your arms in a blink! I think you are making wise decisions and am so impressed with your faithfulness and attitude. I can't wait to see photos of that precious girl in your arms!
Sivje
I love that you are giving God all the glory.... just as it should be.
He will get you to your beloved daughter and HE will hold her in His arms until you arrive.
God's Speed
Oh Becky...thank you for sharing this. "bearing your soul" here has spoken to me...I feel like "my" mountains are completely impossible. I still feel that way more days than NOT. I also feel that God has decided NOT to move my mountain and that is very difficult. I sure needed "today" to hear what you just posted.
Thank You!
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