Thursday, September 15, 2011

2 Years Ago Today...

It was Gotcha Day.

Red Couch Girl from Becky Bilby on Vimeo. (which is actually a week or so after Gotcha Day - but it was close and I love this sweet smile!!)

I wish I could even explain what was going through our minds on that day - but, to be honest, we will let that be the past. It humbles me when I even think about - how selfish I was, how I wasn't listening to anything that God was trying to show me, and how our lives could have been drastically different had we not decided to do, what we deemed "the hard thing" and bring Jada home with us. I was scared - not listening to God lead - and sure we had somehow made a very big mistake. I remember asking the families we travelled with - question after question - did Jada seem ok to them? Did they think something seemed "off"? They were so patient with me - assured me that it all would be ok. I wish I could say it was love at first sight - that there were no doubts in my mind. But that would be lying and I pray - that our openness might help someone else that finds themselves in the same situation. It wasn't what we were expecting - there was nothing easy about it - but, 2 years later, I am so proud of and so in love with this little girl that I can say - it was a great plan - a plan I am so glad we didn't miss out on. I am SO glad our fears did not rule our hearts - we knew what God had called us to - and I am so glad we followed. It has been a ride - but one I'm eternally glad we are on.

Miss Happy

We love you little Jada Faith -

You are our visible reminder - "He Knows".


Eileen said...

She is precious!

I can relate to so much of what you write about Jada - how it was when you first met her in China, the struggles she's faced since coming home. We've gone through similar things with our second daughter, Allison who is now almost 6. It's been a struggle at times with her delays (speech and other) but oh when she masters something, it is so rewarding! It was not "love at first sight" for me in China with her either, but now I am head over heels in love.

Happy Gotcha Day!


Mrs. Danielson said...

You were so brave!! We all were 'caught' up in the huge change all of our families were in! Your faith was shining, even if you didn't feel like it was. God did know and how awesome it was that he did! Blessings and happy 2 years Ms. Jada!

Kim K. said...

Such a humble and beautiful post, Becky. We spent most of our trip in China on email with our cardiologist questioning whether we could handle Josie's condition. Isn't it magical to think those struggles aren't everyday issues anymore? Continued blessings and happy anniversary!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your honesty, Becky! I'm so thankful for your family and it's just been a blessing to follow along and know that when I'm going thru a hard time, I can come here and laugh, cry, feel proud, and pray along with you guys. It's been nearly 71/2 years since our first girls joined our families. I'm just so happy that I've stayed in touch with you and Verna even tho we didn't travel together, I feel a bond!:) Take care, hollym.:)

When you are harvesting your crops and forget to bring in a bundle of grain from your field, don't go back to get it. Leave it for the foreigners, orphans and widows. Then the LORD your God will bless you in all you do.
~Deuteronomy 24:19

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